I like quiet and I don't like noise (this is not the novel thing).
I need to expose myself to loud noises to become deaf (or other more risky methods that I'm not prepared for yet).
I hate having to pick between an already quiet room and noise therapy. On the one hand I know that it's the path to my goal but on the other hand it'll be noisy and I don't want to 1) interrupt the quiet and 2) hear to noise!
The choice sucks.
So on the heels (would a wheelchair user say 'on the wheels'?) of my Inner Reflection post and a chat with Sean from ta.org I realised what a paradox it is. I want to be deaf but I'd also use hearing aids to restore my hearing. Some people who have a desire to be amputees would use prostetics.
It seems paradoxical to want to lose hearing and then to use a device designed to AID hearing. Just like it seems paradoxical to want to lose a limb (or more!) and then use a prostetic to "replace" it. I have called that "The Transabled Paradox!"
At this time I could spend a few paragraphs pondering why I want to use a hearing aid to restore hearing (or not. HAs are more like symbology and reinforcement that yes I am deaf/HOH) or why an amputee-wannabe would use a prostetic but I'm not going to. Too much effort. I like calling something "The Transabled Paradox" ;-)
Carry on...
